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Saturday, August 14

J'ai un mauvais reve
Had a bad dream


Lot things popped up in my dreams like a labyrinth of events. I dreamt of Eric, my co-worker back at fujitsu. Well I'm trying to organized this. We were working on the same team. Boss started giving more programming works to him and I was left with less and less important work and it depressed me. Afterwork I went down to China town and to a shop owned by an old school buddy nicknamed "nenek", he wasn't there, I dealt with his mom. I picked up some stuff from the shop and an Amulet that I thought had a curse in it, a scuplture of a scary monkey.
Back to work scene. I met Arifin, another highschool buddy who was married with Chuiphin, one of the cuties in class of 91. We were in front of a wall where there hanged a lot of framed report. I asked him, what's that on the wall with my name and detail at the back. He told me that's our performance report. I unhooked mine from the nail on the wall. My report was appraised my Mori-san, a new Japanese coworker. Arifin picked down his report and we were sort of comparing our performance. He was good, and achiever, and smart, but he has problem with attitude, conscience, and patient. Mine is not good either, with a note from the president, Fujimoto-san, "Leader Beware', My attitude, conscience, and patience are all good. I was reported to be a very nice guy to be working with, but my command for success was marked a "Sesame-san", I don't know what that means, but that's how it was written in the dream. Compared to Arifin, his command for success is his way high. Another bad things on the report was that I was very responsive at first when given a task, but when left unmonitored, I can forget everything and never delivers. I looked at the report downheartedly, hoping those amulet I got with change my course of life.
Then Arifin told me another bad news, work scene changes to school scene. I was in a class. And the academic has thought of kicking me out and put in Suhendri, a good friend of Arifin. (In real life, this two person doesn't know eachother, this is just my dream) Suhendri also has lack command of success, he is a sesame-san too, but he has better skill at programming, and the academics thought they want to give him a chance to be in the Special Taskforce class I was in and kicked me out for good. He also told me that Suhendri is engaged with Suphin, a dear friend of mine from primary school, and he thinks that gonna offend me, coz I might have had a similar relationship with her in the past. I told them not to worry. We were indeed good friend, but we were never boy/girlfriend that sort. I've thougt of it. Many times I've tried to voice my feelings, but it never came true. And do you want to hear my version of story about her. Your Suhendri might not know her more than I do. They nodded, and I continue recount the life story of Suphin for them to the conclusion of my dream.
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